The Scar Is the Seed: My Career Plan (and the Fruit I Cannot Eat)

What is your career plan?

Turning wounds into wisdom, and work into worship.

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We carry more than stories—
we carry what was planted in pain, grown in silence, and offered in love.

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I’ve lived more years than I likely have left.
That’s not gloomy. It’s clarifying.

This isn’t a midlife crisis. It’s a mid-faith anchoring.

I’m not sprinting anymore. I’m planting.
I’m not chasing legacy as applause. I’m seeking harvest—even if I never taste it.

And strangely, many of my best seeds didn’t grow from success.
They grew from scars.

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A Lesson from Third Grade (That I’m Still Learning)

I was falsely accused of cheating on a spelling test.
Third grade. We passed our papers back to classmates to grade.
What could go wrong?

Spoiler: everything.

The girl behind me saw an answer she thought I had changed—and raised her voice.
I, calm and innocent, said little.
But calm doesn’t always win. Passion did.

And I got in trouble.

It didn’t matter what was true.
Only what felt true to the room.

That moment hurt. But it also planted something deeper:

Truth doesn’t always win the moment.
But it always wins the long game.

When you’re misunderstood, ask:
Who actually sees the real me?
For me, that’s God. And that knowing became my anchor.

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When Life Is the Test

That scar didn’t fade.
It grew roots.

It returned in misjudgments, in church wounds, in the slow grind of trying to prove I mattered.
And recently, in a whisper from the Spirit:

You don’t need a stage. You need to serve.
You don’t need to climb. You need to abide.

I used to think the story was the product.
Now I know: the story is the soil.

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Henry’s got it figured out:
Sometimes the sweetest harvest is already in your hand.

And maybe that’s the real invitation—
not to rush ahead,
but to tend what’s already been given.

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What’s the Plan Now?

A mentor of mine, Myron Golden, once said:

“Your website is your brochure. Your story is your marketing—only if it solves someone else’s problem.”

That hit like truth does—hard and healing.

It reminded me:
I’ve been sitting on a mountain of value—
not because I’m polished,
but because I’ve been shaped.

Scarred, weathered, humbled—
and still standing.

And maybe that’s what people actually need.
Not someone impressive.
But someone present.

Not polish. Presence.
Not perfection. Realness.

Resilient wisdom.
Rooted hope.
Something that grows.

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Twilight or dawn? Sometimes it’s hard to tell.
But the light always comes.

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So Here’s My Career Plan:

• To write from the scars, not from the stage.
• To create with intention—and multiply it through many forms.
• To turn wounds into maps for others who feel lost.
• To offer what I’ve been given, even if I never taste the harvest.

Maybe the point is not to climb higher.
Maybe it is to cultivate deeper.

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The KPI That Actually Matters

I know the language—impact, visibility, platforms, optimization.
I even believe in it.

But I’m after something more eternal.

Not just Key Performance Indicators—
Kingdom Presence Indicators.

Not just impressions—
Imprint.

Not just numbers—
Names.

When the day winds down—and I’m sitting on a rock with a walking stick, watching the river drift by—here’s what I want to know:

The fruit of my life fed someone else.

And I want to be able to say:

“I stopped striving. I started abiding. I gave what I had. And that was enough.”

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Anchored, not adrift.
Peace in the stillness. Purpose in the pause.

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So What’s Next?

I’ll keep writing.
Keep listening.
Keep turning pain—and humor—into something useful.

And hopefully . . . help someone else find their footing.

What scar has shaped you—and who might need the fruit it could bear?

I’d love to hear your story.

Thank you for being here.
For reading.
For walking this road with me.

As a fellow traveler,
let’s build something that lasts.

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